so exhausted of having feelings and emotions.
will it be worth it? will people start appreciating me?

i am not even happy.
Things you wanna try, things that you are excited for, the person going through with you might not feel the same way as you do.
Why is there not any single guide in life? So I can follow through, so I know what are the standards.
How to see if people are real to you or are willing to give you their all?

I don't know. Nobody knows.
Everything's so surreal

every time there's bound to have someone that nobody cares. no one will ever feel bad for.

often times I heard about them feeling bad because he suppose to spend time or is having a staycation with gf. how about me? who has ever done justice for me? Birthday day itself, New Year's Eve, Valentine's Day and even on Sunday.

it's not that I'm unhappy and am complaining now. But just think about it.. have they ever feel bad about it? sadly no. Because they don't give a shit.

and imagine people around him doesn't even treat bother about your existence. I mean like they are even closer to his friends and even friends' friend (that's probably the most ridiculous thing ever) lol.

It just shows something FUCK YOUR OWN LIFE MAN.

Is there any ways to numb the pain. keeping things inside isn't gonna help same goes for letting it out.
Who bothers? Who understands?

too many needs and wants
too many to dos and can't dos
too many nos


i miss being happy

who knows. this might be a mistake.

really tired of feeling like this everyday.
I felt like all these ain't real. Everyone is so superficial and hypocritical