Dilemma

Am back again, the title says it all. 'Cos I am in one complicated dilemma now. I really don't know what I should do? Should I continue studying (obviously I want, but I doubt I can make it through the interviews) i rlly have phobia meeting new people, it's pretty intimidating. I have a thing with interviews but I guess it's time to face it.
Time to face my insecurities?

Anyways, have you tried following your parents to work and look at them while they were busy with their own stuff. I'm helping my parents now while enjoying my holidays at the same time, they spend 3/4 of their week working away. and today while my dad was doing some work, I had the sudden urge to stare at him, at that point of time there's a tinge of sadness in me. My parents are getting old, and yet I have no idea what I want in the future. I have no goals at all, that really scares me. Because I can't see any future for myself.. am I scaring myself or should I really start thinking about it? I'm turning 20 this year without any achievements, chuapeiwen you got to be kidding..times like this, I feel like a loser.

My parents slog their time everyday so as to make sure we have whatever we want, they don't even have any spare time to relax. Many people would feel that they brought this upon themselves, but who can understand? sometimes you just had to finish up your work, but 24hr per day isn't enough.